Jan 14, 2023 4 min A Little Blu Light “We don’t rise to the level of our goals, we fall to the level of our systems.” It was when I was pulling weeds at Abalone Cove for Palos...
Jan 14, 2023 4 min Today's Bike Ride Today’s bike ride was slightly different. After a long while of not listening to my Inner Being, her gentle questions & innocent desires...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneJan 13, 20234 minA Little Blu Light“We don’t rise to the level of our goals, we fall to the level of our systems.” It was when I was pulling weeds at Abalone Cove for Palos...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneJan 13, 20234 minToday's Bike RideToday’s bike ride was slightly different. After a long while of not listening to my Inner Being, her gentle questions & innocent desires...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneJan 13, 20231 minBefore I'm Ready“Great people do things before they're ready. They do things before they know they can do it. Doing what you're afraid of, getting out of...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneJan 13, 20233 minLet's Not Enslave Our BodiesThe way patriarchal Westernization has dominated nature can be equated to women’s manipulation of their natural bodies through eating...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneJan 13, 20232 minTurn Up The VolumeFor as long as I can remember, I have been certain I was a black sheep; a woman existing on a deeper reality away from everything going...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneJan 13, 20232 minMy Psychic DesertI have been in discomfort of how small my above-ground life seems. Wake up, eat, walk, smell, breathe, write, read, play with kitty, make...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneJan 13, 20237 minThe Meaning of MisfitsAs things have begun to toss and turn in the shit storm called 'mid-twenties,' I've abandoned journaling and blogging nearly altogether....
Emily Rose Van AlstyneSep 11, 202211 minI Think I'm a FeministI think I'm a feminist. I think I'm a feminist because I remember taking a course on Feminism in college and really digging it. I think...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneAug 11, 202111 minTo Be So LuckyLet's start with a quick re-cap of everything I've learned over the past 6 months: Jungian Psychology surmises that there are two...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneJun 2, 20214 minFoundational Attachment NeedsMy polyvocal agency, otherwise known as my body, has been operating out of fear, as a result of my disorganized upbringing. There are...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneApr 14, 202113 minEmpty Consent: Living a life you don't want and how to reclaim itIt turns out, I've taken a brief respite from writing. Involuntarily. Perhaps it's the chaos of the pandemic or the luxury of self-pity,...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneAug 21, 20204 minHate Cannot Drive Out HateSo, there was a bit of a kerfuffle the other day at the Garden Center... My usual kerfuffles usually consist of old white women telling...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneAug 20, 20206 minMy 23rd Womb Emancipation DayWell, yesterday was my 23rd celebration of escaping the womb. It wasn't as revealing as my previous birthdays have been. I think that is...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneMay 29, 20201 minA Family of ThreeWith reflexive shame, I awake with tumultuous blame. A glance down at my stomach, Begins my heart’s plummet. Feeling like a reprobate For...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneMay 15, 20201 minShrikeInspired wholly and completely by Hozier's soundtrack, Shrike. I couldn’t utter my love when it counted, Ah, but I’m singing like a bird...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneApr 27, 20204 minFinding Your FootingI have been finding my footing lately. The other day, I attempted to recreate a very hipster SuperCutePinterestPost; it was a resin...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneFeb 18, 20205 minDaily Diatribes: Love Always WinsWorking as a canvasser (or more impressively: a Field Manager) for Amnesty International has introduced me to a world that is not...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneDec 17, 20191 minFive Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand Six-Hundred MinutesFive hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes. One year. One year since I graduated the residential treatment center that saved...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneNov 25, 20192 minLearning to Trust HopeLearning to trust yourself after an eating disorder requires some serious mental gymnastics. What used to 'feel good' was actually...
Emily Rose Van AlstyneOct 27, 20191 minLet's Be StillMovement, for me, has a deep history of self-punishment. Whether it be a severe addiction to running, dancing with no fuel, hiking for...